I don't want this to turn into a blog so if there are more updates I will post them in a different section!
Last night he (my husband) wanted to know more about the other person and I kinda clammed up and my heart sped up in my chest. I wish I could be more communicative, but I don't want any harm to come to anyone, so I feel it all lies on my shoulders and weighs me down.
I guess I was hoping that I would grow out of loving the other guy, but I don't think that will happen. I think about him everyday and can't push him out of my life now I have found him....
...but my relationship with my husband has been getting better lately, we are spending more time together and he is helping me and the kids more and hasn't been permananently at a computer game (a whole other story). I don't know if he is just scared I will leave, or trying to make me forget the other person or what.
I know someone said to take it slowly but this is driving me mad.