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Old 08-10-2010, 04:00 AM
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Originally Posted by LovingRadiance View Post
I don't think I've ever experienced an expectation regarding it.

Nope-I'm certain I haven't.
Me neither. Back 12 yrs ago when I started cumming this way, I didnt know the possibility existed, really.

Even tho I'd read de Sade where he talks of women ejaculating lots of fluid. (Graphicly termed "spraying fuck" and other colorful phrases lol) And Id read other old porn where there was talk of women "spending," again a ref to women's copious jizz.


BUT-I know for me, that there is a TOTALLY different sense of release from that, then I have with other orgasm that don't include ejaculation.

I am unable to get MYSELF to the point of ejaculation. Frustrated enough at this point that I spent the last 4 hours SERIOUSLY trying to figure out when/if I could get enough privacy in a bed to put a serious effort into figuring out how. But-that's not realistic. I can't get 5 minutes-and I've tried many many times over the years when I had hours.
Kids always around?

For me, it was a progression. First I exped jizzing when my ex would finger me for a very long time. I wouldnt start to jizz til after about the 7th to 9th orgasm. I'd need both clitoral and vaginal digital stimulation.

After a couple years, I'd be able to jizz after just 2 or 3 orgasms from fingering or oral sex.

Finally a few more yrs later, I'd be able to make myself cum this way, with clitoral stim alone, and on the first and subsequent orgasms.

I most often find that release to be..... like when you have to go to the bathroom so bad it hurts, or that last bit when a baby's shoulders break through and they slide out during delivery?
Yes, in fact we have to bear down to squirt, just like one does when pushing a baby out.

It's a sudden sense of "NOW I can relax" "NOW I know where peace is" "NOW the world is right around me".

Moments like right now-when my world is careening insanely around me, is when I need that release most.
And yet-here I am 3000 miles away from being able to get that release.

Fucking sucks.

As for expectation-which is what I was supposed to be writing in the first place, I've never had a man put that expectation upon me. I've only ever had myself feeling the urgency of needing it.
Today (as well as the last umpteen days)... is one of those days.

I hate that pent up feeling!
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley

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