Thanks for sharing redpepper. It is amazing how healing a journal can be and to post it publicly and receive feedback and encouragement just enhances the benefits- in my opinion.
Have you and Nerdist every lived separately in the 9 years you have been together?? If not- have you ever had a break from the day to day living together arrangement for more than 2 weeks at a time? If so- how did that time apart affect your relationship and your connection with one another?
The key to life is in being fully engaged and peacefully detached simultaneously and authentically in each moment.