So I've posted here in here in the past and everyone has been wonderful. I really can't believe what has happened. I've been in an open relationship for a year and half, or so I thought. My ex has been seeing his secondary for around 5 months. I guess he's been putting us through a test (me and the secondary). I ended up sleeping with another guy once and told him about it. He broke up with me because he was testing me and the secondary. Giving us "carte blanche" do be open but he didn't want us to sleep with anyone else, while he could have outside relationships.
He said it's different for guys and girls. With girls it's more emotional. Are you kidding me? If he asked me to be mono I would have. I thought the whole concept of being poly was to have multiple caring relationships.
I told him I didn't want to sleep/or be with anyone else before, that he's the only one I wanted. The guy I ended up sleeping with was random and almost like a friend and I was feeling really lonely as he added a third into the mix as of late.
Any advice from anyone? I feel really confused and lost. I feel like I shouldn't have slept with the other guy. I even felt bad I did because I cared about my ex so much. I just don't get it.