I felt the same way when my husband started to see other people. I can honestly say that the idea did not appeal to me to find someone else either. I am so sorry that it didn't. For me having someone else to support me through the times that my husband was with his girlfriends would have been a tremendous benefit. I am working to be less dependent on him and share love with others to help myself. It does not change my love for my husband in any way. We have been through some amazingly difficult times. No one said that sharing is easy. I wish you the best of luck.