Cheating destroys trust and quite often this is not something that can ever be gained back from anyone. I hope this is not the case for you. There are good people out there that will treat you with the respect, compassion and the dignity you deserve. They are honest and open and able to communicate and be patient with you as you would be with them in return because they will encourage better things in you that make you feel grounded and loved...
Go and find them!
This guy is a done deal and is destroying not only your trust but your self worth and self respect. It's hard to recover from that and I would bet that when you do end it for good that you will need to spend a great deal of time in recovery, regaining the things you have lost.
Why not start now, before he takes more away from you!
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