my girlfriend just came out as poly, i'm scared!
So my girlfriend and I have been together for almost three and a half years now. We have a beautiful relationship, and we have grown together so much as a couple. I lost my virginity to her at the age of 20, when we first met.
Just last night thought, she came out and told me that there was someone else that she met, and they just clicked, and she told me that she wants to pursue a relationship with him, a sexual one. She just said today she would be into having sex with him if they could have a chance to feel out and explore that.
And it makes me feel crazy on so many levels. For one, I've only ever had sex with her, so when she comes out and says that, now I want to go out and sleep with someone else...but, is that out of spite or.....so confused. I sure am sad too. Sad and confused, and I'm making her sad with my sadness.
Funny thing is, is I want to experiment with polyamorous relationships, but, truth is....I have so much growing up sexually to do...so much exploring to do still...and I just feel a little bit left out when my girlfriend comes to me and says she found someone else to share something special with.
And i'm not one to just go outto the bar and pick up girls...i've never been good at that. I'm scared now that our whole relationship dynamics have changed, and...i dunno what to think.