Yay, you made it
I think you're right to reserve judgment of your feelings about things. You can never really know how you feel about something in advance. You just have to be where you are now and right now it seems that the benefits are out weighing the negatives for you.
And stop apologizing, this is your blog it can be as long and as rambly as it needs to be if they don't like it they won't read it, or we'll skim it, no biggy