I may have to start a bucket list.
"I believe the first time I considered polyamory was when I was laying in bed next to my girlfriend and male crush prior to doing anything sexual and we all were curled up together in this nice warm ball of people. I don't think I have ever felt so complete in my life.
"I just want to be able to experience that on a regular basis. That overwhelming sense of completion. I love my girlfriend more than anything and I couldn't imagine life without her, but when all three of us were together it felt perfect. "
Just for the record... I am insanely envious of that experience. Just reading it brings tears to my eyes. I may have to start a bucket list.