Oh I feel for you. I can't imagine not being with either one of my men. They come together now, not one or the other. If I was faced with having to chose, and I've told them this, I would chose neither and leave. I would take my boy and start divorce proceedings. It would break my heart, but I would rather have neither than one gone.
You have some work to do. Perhaps your perm would benefit by reading on here about other peoples stories in order to deal with his emotions? Maybe he could ask his own questions about this? It doesn't sound like either of you are willing to budge, but really, he will have to or lose you. Not to mention the amount of growth potential he has.
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