not married...or even living together
I see a common theme in a lot of posts here that people tend to be married or living with one partner and seeing another outside...I am finding it hard to relate with some of the ideas on here because my bf and I live separately.
I really feel that I would like a committed relationship with someone I live with (he and I tried that, but he moved out because he felt he couldn't be free to "entertain" guests if he continued to live with me). So we have been living apart for two months now, I got back into the swing of living alone with my children quickly, but I find it hard to see he and I in a "committed" relationship when we only see each other maybe twice a week for a couple hours here and there.
I feel the time we have together isn't enough, he feels that any time with me is good no matter how little or how much. I feel flung out into space and disconnected from him most of the time and when I know he is spending time with other girls, I feel left out. I have told him a lot that I want to spend more time with him, but he prefers to keep the status quo. I feel sad inside about that....it feels like a kind of rejection.
I think that might be why I feel agitated about our relationship and uncertain because I like to share my life with my partner in order to feel secure, but right now my bf and I share nothing except each others' company every once in a while.
Is anyone else on here living separately from their partners? How do you feel secure in your relationship?