Thread: Growing
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Old 03-20-2009, 02:49 PM
mosaicbtrfly mosaicbtrfly is offline
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I have spent my life feeling like I just didn't fit in with most people. As I have matured over the years, I have realized that a huge part of the problem is that I do not think like the average Jane. Now that polyamory has entered my life, through my husband's new love (not lover, yet), I am feeling more alive, more me, more grounded than I ever have. It is scary in many ways. I feel like I have let the butterfly free and now it is with me even more than before. My husband has been more attentive, considerate, engaged, supportive, and most of all, happy. He is literally glowing.

I am feeling a myriad of emotions about the whole thing. Mostly positive, but it is overwhelming at times. I have never allowed myself to let go and experience life in this way. It feels "right", but at the same time a part of me wants to scream that this can't be ok. It is tough to fight the voices of conventional thinking. Surely, I will be hurt and my self not be ok through this experience. Yet, my husband and his friend are incredibly loving and supportive and here for me.

I guess what I am asking for is reassurance that there is success to be had here. Are there those of you who have taken this path and found love, happiness, growth, etc.?
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