Oh roly I feel for you. I hear you when you say you are scared and want you to know that, for what its worth, both Nerdist and I are here for you in any way we can be. He totally loves listening to you talk and hearing what you are going through. He appreciates vulnerability and will understand these things. I know, he's my husband. I have lived it.
Take care of yourself and put your dream out there. Its obtainable, illusive at this point, but is obtainable. I fully believe that.
Its late for me too.
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