If you don't mind my asking?
How old are you?
It's not that it necessarily matters, just sounds like you are younger than I am.
Anyway-my biggest thought in reading your post was this:
Just because there seems to be a theme RIGHT NOW in your life; that doesn't mean it's "forever"....
Sort of a dramatic way of looking at it.....
Maybe a bit over-emotional right now?
"Love As Thou Wilt"