Originally Posted by otter
.........I am so scared to really tell him how I feel. At this point I do not know what to do. I will just keep going as I have. Loving 2 guys but never able to tell one how I really feel.
Sweetheart - no point in stressing over telling him what he already knows !
Trust me - he KNOWS !
It's VERY admirable how you have handled this all this time.
At this point I'd suggest keeping that model in place. Even if his marriage does truly end, there's going to be a time of uncertainty for him. A lot of unresolved emotions & stuff. Not the time for what's between you to blossom. That needs to come in it's proper time.
And sometimes, it never comes. I've learned this. Others have learned this. It doesn't change the love that exists between you. How special it is. It only changes how it's lived and expressed. Sometimes the dream remains unrealized but what's left is still precious beyond the comprehension of most.