I ask my self all the time why I have never said anything to him. This last call I told him more then I have ever said before. I am just scared. I do not want to lose him even as a friend. I guess I still have not come to terms with how I feel my self. I have been doing a lot of thinking. I think joining this forum and putting down the story for the first time is a step to wraping my own mind around my own feelings that I locked away so tight for so long. After the phone call last night Bear told me it was not fair that I have not told him how I feel. I don't know. I am almost forty and right now I feel like I am in High School and have a major crush. But afraid to ask if the guy likes me....
A new love is vary shiny, but with a regular polish a old one shines just as bright.