Hi Ms B,
Well - there's "trust" - and then there's "blind trust".
Blind trust is risky, dangerous and seldom "trustworthy"
Blind trust is really little more than a "hope" !
But "trust" also involves ourselves. In order to have trust in someone else we have to trust ourselves. Trust that we've done our due diligence in preventing and/or preparing for a less than favorable outcome to the best of our ability! Once we feel we've done that, it's out of our hands. What will be - will be. But we're prepared because we know it's outside our control.
We do it every day, if for example we drive. We have a certain amount of trust that everyone else on the road is trying the best they can to be a good driver. But we don't blindly assume that. We focus, pay attention, be on the lookout. Buckle the seat belt. It's all we can do.
Sounds like you are doing what you can to make the "drive" safe and pleasurable. The more you work on it yourself, the more trust you will have in yourself - AND - the situation.
Just don't pull down the blindfold, step on the accelerator and afterward cry "victim"