Thank you all guys for your support.
Right now I feel all the effort was worth nothing. You see we were geographically apart, and we were working hard on changing that. All the endurance, love, compassion, all to try to make it happen and possible.. all we went trough.. was for nothing now.
Accepting that the dream is not possible is harder to grasp. I guess sometimes you just have to accept that no matter how hard you try some dreams can not happen.
If something can't be, then moving on and looking for something that can be is a solution, isn't it?
You're right EugenePoet, I need to move on looking for something that can be.