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Old 04-16-2010, 09:15 AM
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Default If I Dont Open My Mind...

I may lose him...

My boy friend Adam and I have been dating for a little over a month now. He told me before we started dating that he was into the whole dating/seeing other people when you're with someone. I told him I wasnt into that. I was raised "If he loves you, he needs to be with you and only you".

He told me today that he loves me, which was a complete shock because he's not the kind of guy to say it first. He said that he really needs this. There are just some things that I'm not capable of doing for him that he desires...

My first relationship, I was 15 and I was beaten and raped by my 19 year old boy friend. That went on for a whole year. He is now thankfully, in prison.

Adam told me that he's into physical pain for sexual pleasure. Again, I told him I wasnt into that because of my past. He said from the begingin that he wouldnt force me to do anything I wasnt comfortable doing.

Now he's come to me asking for a sub. We had a long talk about it and I said "If I say yes... you can't bring the person around me... I dont think I could handle the fact of seeing the girl your having sex that isnt me... I'm going to start second guessing everything about me. My looks, my weight, everything." He said, "I am with you because you are you. I dont care about how you do your hair or your makeup. Thats not why I'm with you. I love you, and care about you, I can actually see us going further in this relationship and I can't say that about any other girl I've ever been with."

So now I'm all stressed out... if I dont open my mind to this I'm going to lose him. I dont want that. He's very important to me. I mean, people (obviously considering the number of members on this site lol) do this all the time... so I guess I'm tryin to look for positives in this... and help me get over this doubt I may have about this.

Its mainly the sex... I dont care about him having a sub he can beat the hell out of to give her 'pleasure' (thats still bizzar to me, that people get pleasure out of that...). Its the sex... exuse my language... but his dick dont need to be in anyone else but me...

So.. please help... before I lose him...
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