Feel the need to update although there isn't anything to update. Here I am a month later and still haven't said anything. Spent a lot if time examining my emotions and motivations and talking to some friends about everything. Pretty much decided that it's not just a desire for Friend that is pushing me - I really have seen polyamory as a viable lifestyle for me for a long time. So I guess I'm ok with my end of things but still afraid to broach subject.
And that's all.