It is always good to read your posts and see how you are. I really appreciate the depth of your openness.
I'm giving polyamory my most serious shot to date due to the fact that my partner is dating my sister. Interesting times. My current thinking is that poly people should be loved in a way that is different to the mono version of love and maybe the fact that we tend to love as we would want to be loved contributes to the angst associated with mono/poly relationships. Don't know where this will all lead but we will see.