Elemental, I hope you are well.
I'm not really on this forum much and I don't really pay attention. Over the years that I visit here and there, I come across stories. I read a couple of posts on your blog (not all), so I can't offer any comment other than;
I can see that you have been through a lot and I wish you well. I can see you are brave and strong and I hope those qualities continue in your life.
I can say that, right ;-) ???