I am sorry you struggle.
How about taking it in two parts then? Since you cannot see yourself with anyone new... Just focus on "freedom FROM" ugh at this time. What do you need to get freedom from ugh?
Could worry an out "freedom TO" do new stuff later. You do not have to be doing both parts at once if it is too much right now.
Last edited by GalaGirl; 03-11-2014 at 09:21 AM.