Hindsight is 20/20. Even Bold didn't anticipate how poorly his father would treat me. I underestimated and overestimated a lot of things - I've never immigrated anywhere before and I muddled through it mostly on my own.
I was concerned about the possible outcomes before I left home and I sought advice from friends, family and people in a support group I belong to. I felt I had built something with Bold worth fighting for and I took a chance. A big chance. A huge risk, if you wish, but all life is risk of varying degrees. The support group I mentioned actually started in the USA so I knew I had that to go to. It's not always easy to follow plans when in a stress situation but I don't blame myself for what happened.
If you're going to insist on doing so then please stop. It's not helpful.