You're being emotionally abused. End it. Get yourself taken off the lease and move back with your parents. Make new friends. Get counseling for your depression.
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley
me: Mags, 59, living with:
miss pixi, 37