It is strange though. I feel very bad. Im spending a lot of time depressed and crying. But at the same time I feel so good. And I know, at least for the next few months, I will be safe.
When you experience fear, there can be the "flight or fight"
load of brain chemistry released into your system. It can take a few days to clear "brain dump" chemicals so feeling gross right now physically but better emotionally makes total sense to me.
Then facing unknown changes head -- that too can be taxing on the system.
Hang in there. Stay safe.