Perhaps you are experiencing envy. You're away from your lover and metamour while you are at school. Will you be living much closer to him when school is over?
I am in a V with a man and a woman. I share a living space with my gf, and my bf shares a living space with his wife. However, he and I share lots of love, give each other lots of attention. We communicate several times a day in online chat, and visit in person several times a week, go on dates, have lots of sex, he even helps us with our home maintenance like a real husband
. So, I have no envy or worries about being secondary to his wife.
What changes can you make to feel closer to your bf?
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley
Mags (poly, F, 61) loving miss pixi (poly, F, 39) since January 2009, living together since 2013
"Master," (mono, 36), miss pixi's Dom for 3 years