The other thing that I feel bad about is this. A couple weeks ago, when he was going to have a date with Buddhist, he told me he was "unattached" to the outcome, implying I should be as well. Then at some point after that, he asked me if I'd ever "meditated on mudira," which I guess is Buddhist-speak for compassion. Instead of talking about "compersion," and how I can get there, he is asking me to do something Buddhist, like his new GF??
Oh, wow. That is very reassuring. Not.
Reminds me of when my ex h got his new gf and all of a sudden topics and ideas I'd been trying to get him to see, and he was wary of, or rejecting utright, were now great super cool b/c his new gf was into them.
Ack. Bad move, guys.
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley
Mags, F, 60, poly-dating, loving and living with
miss pixi, F, 38
Punk, 41, M
Old Friend, gender fluid
Nick, 35, M (occasional lover)
Hippie, 25 (?)
Dark Wing, 45 (?)