Work has been awful the last couple of days. Yesterday, my company did a mass layoff. 83 people lost their jobs. I survived the cut, but a lot of people I respect and like are gone. Surviving is not as bad as getting let go, but it's incredibly difficult and shocking to be one of the ones left standing. You feel scared, like you're under a microscope, and it gives you a feeling of "there but for the grace of God go I." Not to mention, my duties just doubled, I've spent hours in meetings while announcements were made, duties were shifted, and people basically panicked. Leo has been amazing. He said "Honey, you're awesome. You are worth every bit of your job and then some." He's been reassuring and supporting me a lot while I've been dealing with the shock. I told him that I was worried I was neglecting him, and he just told me "If I feel neglected, I can take care of it. I like porn!" Goofy thing!
Days like this make me so very glad we worked through everything to get to this point in our relationship. Have I mentioned yet that I believe opening our relationship made our relationship stronger and better? I know that's happened for others. I'm just glad it happened for me too.
Things with J fell through. I had a feeling it might from the time I met her. She has never been in a relationship with someone poly before, and didn't know if she would be able to do it. He's already married to me, so he couldn't be her next husband (she's been divorced about a year). He wanted to be her boyfriend, but he wasn't sure it would last either. She's still in a state of mourning her marriage. However, they made a go of it, and apparently it was just too awkward. He's been talking with a couple of others, but nothing's piquing his interest yet. I figure when he's ready, he'll find someone he likes. He's a very
good-looking man, charming, and social. He doesn't have a problem meeting and connecting with people. I'm shy; he's the exact opposite. I honestly think he's just focusing on other things right now. His career is really taking off right now.