I agree with IP here. Actions scream much louder than intent.
If you can do it without wanting to throw up on your shoes, I recommend tossing out the next email and then immediately emptying the trash. Done, gone, no reading. Let the "I'm gonna hork up my lunch" feeling pass and see how it feels. Better? Worse? Then move on from there.
Mono. Divorced, two kids (DanceGirl, 14; and PokéGirl, 11), two cats, one house, many projects.
My partner. Poly. In relationships with me, Xena, and Noa.
Poly. In relationships with Chops and Noa, and dating others.
Married, Poly. In relationships with Chops and Xena (individually).
Blog thread: A Mono's Journey Into Poly-Land (or, "Aw hell, there's no road map?!")
Slightly more polished blog with a mono/poly focus: From Baltic to Boardwalk