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Old 12-28-2013, 02:30 AM
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Thanks. I am waffling back and forth tonight between being teary and being relieved that there is an end to having to handle bullshit.

Though, I am really going to miss the sex with him. Without a doubt, the best ever.

I learned a lot about what I don't want in a boyfriend, and what wrong poly practices look like. Both from my end - and definitely from his.

My husband had been cautioning me that this relationship was not going to give me what I was searching for, from the first time M made me feel less than important. People here did too. It's true. I should have been more caring about my emotional health. But, I loved him and apparently that made me stupid. I still love him, of course. I can't shut my emotions off like a switch. He is very wonderful, in many, many ways.

"You take that love you made, and stick it into someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood. And walking arm in arm, you hope it don't get harmed, but even if it does, you just do it all again..."
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