It was 72 here today. I dream of a green Christmas. lol
May I suggest you think of P in much the same way you would think of a boyfriend with a separate home a distance away? Before my hubby, I dated a man for 14 months that lived about 50 minutes away. He owned his own home, so he wasn't moving in with me and I need an excellent internet connection for work (I'm a remote employee) that wasn't available in his area, so I wasn't joining him. He couldn't be there for me easily, but I could accept that pretty easily. We broke up because of his jealousy issues, not because of availability.