Originally Posted by SchrodingersCat
If I'm understanding correctly, it sounds like you're ambivalent towards marriage in general, but that you do love your wife. If it were possible to continue the marriage but with the inclusion of polyamory, that you would be content to remain married.
You have hit the nail on the head but unfortunately she is not even slightly receptive. I have let her go and am coming to terms with her anger towards me although I hold no grudge against her. I feel bad that I brought her into this not really understanding myself but I cannot undo the past.
Thank you for the time and effort you put into your reply I am really feeling welcomed, validated and supported by this.