"I found out about polyamory and resonated with it immediately. I talked to Richard about it and we started seeing each other again as a poly couple. It has worked out very well for us and we have been together as poly for 4 years. "
Thank you idealist, I am so glad things worked for you. You give me much hope.
I tried to approach the idea that traditional relationships don't resonate with me toniight and it failed miserably as I suspected it would. I still love her and am sorry I have to hurt her but I know I canno try and squish myself into a box I don't fit and I am very optimistic that I can have another meaningful relationship with someone who is on the same page as me in the future.