Thanks Dagferi, I appreciate you trying to help me here. I am not going to date, I do not believe it is the right thing to do until the divorce is final and I come to terms with myself and a possible change in self identity of sorts. I had no idea there was a showtime show. I don't watch much TV of any kind.
I was looking back and I posted in the Relationship corner because I am ending a relationship... this was at like 4am my time after having been up since 8am the day before and having had the hours long divorce conversation. I think my foggy mind probably should have put this into a different thread. So looking back I see that that probably caused some confusion, sorry.
I wanted to reach out right then is all but my mental functions were not operating at full capacity at all. I would move this thread to general discussions if I could figure out how...