You are married to someone who has the potential to make your life hell. Legally and emotionally.
If you start seeing someone new are you sure your wife will not cause drama?
If you do not want a relationship then knock yourself out date as many people a you want. Stop worrying about relationships that do not exist yet. It is hard enough to find decent relationships when mono. Being poly narrows that field a lot more. Join your local poly community.. read read read... Especially peoples experiences. While in theory poly sounds like a blast. Shows like the one on showtime make it look like a sex fueled party. It is not. But cross that bridge when it happens.
40 yo straight female
Married in the eyes of the government to Butch since 2001...
Murf my monogamous second husband has been with me since May of 2012.
In a V relationship with an average 50/50 split of time between my two husbands.