Hey. I love what you've written and how you've written it. I found myself connecting with your journey of discovering, celebrating, and then figuring out what the fuck to do with your sexuality! Maybe you're a bit ahead of me though, so I'm gleaning wisdom from your insights
I also (for some different reasons to you) had difficulty with feeling empowered as a whole sexual person until more recently.
Go well. I hope you keep sharing your story here.