I think the trick is acknowledging your demons and coming to peace that they will always be there in some way. They just don't have to define you.
Giving yourself permission to move on past it.
You don't have to forget it, or get over it. But you don't have to keep it in right in front of you blocking the view either.
You could set it down, move yourself forward and get past it and move on to living the rest of your life without it clouding things. If you want to go back to visit it, you know where it lives. But you don't have to carry it around!
Is that part of your plan-in-progress now? To seek counseling to come to terms with that and become able to lay it down? That could be a helpful thing.