Excuse me, but your husband is acting like a friggin douche.
He's a cheating lying liar. His friends are also acting like bastards and bitches.
You've got a newborn, he cheated on you when you were pregnant, now he's cheating again??? And you're not well emotionally. You've got PPD. ARE you being treated for that?
Stand up for yourself, honey. Get your therapy and meds if needed for the PPD. Insist on couples' counseling. Take a stand. Complete transparency, no more lying, or you're done. No one should live like this.
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley
Mags (poly, F, 61) loving miss pixi (poly, F, 39) since January 2009, living together since 2013
also loving Punk (42, M) since Oct 2015 (he has recently downgraded us to friends)
"Master," (mono, 34), miss pixi's Dom for 2 years