Originally Posted by Magdlyn
It would be nice if you could make a respectful clean break.
This is exactly what I hope for, should it come to that. I don't want there to be more hard feelings than necessary. I'd like to remain cordial with them, although I seriously doubt it will be possible to remain close friends, under these circumstances.
You are right about torturing myself. There comes a point when you have to be true to yourself, and once I find out if my fears are indeed true, then I will have no choice but to move on. I can't go on like this much longer. I've never even been drunk until I started dealing with this. Now I drink to numb the anxiety. Red flag? Yes. I need to stop this, one way or another, before my emotions spiral more out of control than they already are.
I need to possibly bow out gracefully while a portion of my dignity is still intact.