I see... My question is... Why does he want to be with me if there is no chemistry? Does he really love me? For me love passes through sexual chemistry... I might be wrong... On the other hand I'm having a very poor sexual life because it's hard to find other leathermen/kinky guys in my area... If I'd found one with whom I could live my sexuality then probably I would not be maddening about our relationship. For a brief time it was like that and it was amazing (even our sex life together had a brief lift since probably was not worrying anymore and it came on its own).
Thank you for your time and advice! Will focus on appreciating his love under other areas while I look for the man who gives me what he cannot currently give me. Also let him space to work on his honesty thing...