Can I say how much I've appreciated your posts over the years, just from the sense of human honesty that you bring to everything? Thank you.
I don't know you, but feel I know a little bit from your postings. To travel like this from Australia to Europe, back and forth - good lord, how do you do it? My family barely manages our kind-of-regular US/Euro switch without major upheaval. Exhaustion must be a serious problem for you... I wish you strength.
As for a thread topic from what seems like a while ago... it sounds lovely that Matt undestands your love for your best friend, and her love for you. It sounds like that is a safe space for you to be you, just as you are - where the past is full of deeply meaningful and loving interactions, and they've always been safe. If poly can mean THAT, well, hot damn, right?