First, I want to thank everybody for their response.
It gave me some perspective and some thinking points which is what I needed. I am much more at ease with what I need to do and where I need to be headed
Marcus, I do really appreciate the reminder that I can only control me. And I am aware of what points I do need to think about and work through.
Dirt, thank you for giving me some "talking points". I think in my frustration I might not have been able to explain my issues as clearly.
Murasaki, Those resources are awesome! Thank you.