I know I am really young. Which is why I'm willing to try this now, while i can rather than later in in life while there is more to lose. At this point I'm willing to try to make this work as much as possible. After this visit, however, will make my decision on whether or not to keep going in this direction with this couple. I have looked at it from her perspective and I do get jealous at times, just as much as she does, since I feel she has priority over me. But I also feel like I love him too much to let this go.
I know it's stupid of me to say if do anything to keep it going, but this is a really strong feeling that I've never experienced before. I want to keep going, but I don't want to go through the same feeling of being dropped again.
I'm just very confused as to which road I should take .