My acute problem seems to have solved itself, because my friend (???) obviously doesn't want to talk to me. That feels kind of okay, because if I'm honest to myself I can see that I don't really want to talk to her either. We're both so shaken, I don't know whether we can communicate without getting deeper into hurt and misunderstanding.
Can there ever be a situation where it's better not to talk about things, at least for some time?
I practise "taking a step back and breathing" a thousand times a day. It works better than I would have thought.
That's easier, too, when I don't talk to my friend.
But won't it hurt our boyfriend when she and I don't communicate directly?
It's like most of the rules and methods I know and have used successfully before just don't apply here anymore.