Sorry the break-up turned out to be a mess. Can't always be helped, especially when an unexpected drama is added to the machine.
If it didn't hurt, you'd have to wonder if you were human. Just do the best you can with the hand you've been dealt.
Hope to hear more from you as time goes on (and perhaps as the heat and smoke clear).
With kind regards,
Love means never having to say, "Put down that meat cleaver!"