Last night we had a good friend over to have some mutual fun together. Once again I had a hard time staying aroused, though I had an amazing time with them. I was happier observing my wife getting off with her, or my wife pleasuring me while I made out with our friend.
I really feel that connection with my lover is paramount to me getting into it (and subsequently not having sustaining issues). I'm questioning what I thought I was looking for. I thought it was FWB or casual sex. But it is not going as I had expected.
Definately causing me lots to think about. Last night after our friend left, we had great sex, then in the middle of the night. No issues. Connection seems to be the primary focus of what I need to enjoy sex. I just don't think I can go there with anyone else.
Perhaps I'll just have to get off on her explorations. haha
This is an interesting journey, that's for sure!