Originally Posted by Ilove2men
Have you ever gotten something unexpected out of yourself before? Did it throw you for a loop? I feel that because my reaction was unexpected that it brought out even more emotions out of me and all of them were intensified.
Yes, in recent months, the last 6 or so, I was feeling emotions I thought i had beaten into submission or that I had never felt. Triggers were new as were the reactions.
My immediate reactions to things immediately threw me into a tailspin of emotions to those reactions. Anger at what I was feeling, irritation at how I was reacting and worst of all, I went to my biggest defence mechanism, I shut down externally. I immediately throw a wall up wanting to protect everyone while I fight with myself.
It didn't work