i've grown to be like that too redpepper. I have very, very few friends and that number, sadly, decreased by two in December.
I am in the process of delving into this to see what, if anything, I can change in order to increase my friendships and improve the ones I do have.
i'm hoping to be able to change things for the better. That is my goal for this year, to do the introspection and self examination so that I can beter myself and my relationships.