Your responses are helpful. I understand that some of my language carries with it connotations that can be quite negative. It was nice to hear your response from someone who understands that's not always where it's coming from.
I've also been in crises so I know I was bandying about a lot of negative ideas and attitudes as I was definitely bouncing between extremes. I think I got called to task for it quite a bit in this thread, but that's fine. It's honestly all been helpful regardless.